Wish you were here =(

Well!
Try to write my blog in english language in a very first time. I want to improve my english language and my essay writing skill. As i know my english, grammar and vocaburlary is poor but i still want to try it.  If i did any wrong, please forgive me >.<


Ok. I want to talk about this few days.  This few days was sucks! My mood is upside down, from a cheerful person gone to be bad mood especially at night. Why? I know why but it was difficult to solve it. Yes. It's really.




I need my dear. I want my dear by my side. I really need him. But what should i do? My dear was many days no accompany me. I know my dear was rushing his reports and tutorials recently. How could i voice out my request to him? I can't be selfishness. So, i had no way! I had to stay all night alone by myself. I can't be strong this time anymore. My tears keep drop and drop. I feel suffer while i need him but he is not by my side. How?


I know my dear was back to hometown today so i hope he could accompany me before he back. Otherwise, I have to wait for few days but i can't wait even a second. I keep cried yesterday for few hours. Yesterday something was happen that made me more moody. Ya. The scenario that i saw yesterday was really made me dissapointed. My dear was keep said me my friends is more important than him. But, he doesn't know he is more important for me.


The scene that i saw yesterday is i'm was dissapointed, but he still can go mamak with friends. After that, i was went to lakeside, he already know i'm there but he don't talk to me and he talk to his friends. When i sitting there, i felt my heart was cool and i can't accept this. I feel that he don't care me. This scene was prove that friends is more important than me for him! In the meantime, he was talking about motor with his friends. He care his motor more than me? Well! Maybe motor is more important than me.


Midnight, he was beside me. He keep asking me why? I can't talk at that time. I don't have any courage. While he lose his patience, i walked towards him and hug him from his back. While i hugging him, i was pressing my handphone to let him know what i want to say. After that, he called me to sit his motor and fetch me home. I don't want but at that time he was losing his patience and became angry, i had no choice. When reach my home, he was asking me some questions with soft voice but that time, i can't heard any words. I lost myself! My heart was broken! I just walked into my house. When i enter my room, i was cried. I cried for hours!



Start from now i want to hide my real personality. I just will show my cheer to everyone and hide my sadness. I will keep all things inside my heart. I don't want other see through me. Hope i can do it. =(


At last, I wish i could be strong and wish you were here. =(

I love you, dear.